Buffalo Suspect Payton Gendron Wrote He Felt Nothing After Stabbing And Beheading Cat

The New York Post provided other grisly details of Gendron’s entry, in which he recalled swinging the cat by its tail for greater force against the hard surface, and requiring 20 swings of his hatchet to sever its head. He also posted a photo his own blood-spattered face afterward.

Gendron, a self-professed white supremacist, has pleaded not guilty to murder. He expressed anxiety in other journal entries that his parents would discover his mass shooting plot.

“My parents know little about me,” he wrote on Feb. 22 in a note reported by The Washington Post. “They don’t know about the hundreds of silver ounces I’ve had, or the hundreds of dollars I’ve spent on ammo. They don’t know that I spent close to $1000 on random military s—. They don’t even know I own a shotgun or an AR-15, or illegal magazines.”